100 things today

1. I am dog sitting at my boss's house right now.
2. I love the work commute from my boss's house. It's only five minutes away. Heavenly.
3. I like showing up early to work, and I was very easily able to do that today, because.. you guessed it! I'm staying at my boss's house.
4. I've decided my boss's house is too big. It takes forever to get from the kitchen to the bedroom to the shower to the closet... totally impractical.
5. I wish I had more time and more energy.
6. I chronically try to schedule more things to do in my life than I have time for and I don't know how to stop. This concerns me.
7. I'm not very good at the "games section" of the LSAT. I might have to work hard in order to improve.
8. I wonder if I have the mental capacity and enough energy and discipline to work hard enough to improve on the games section.
9. My ankle still hurts. It's been hurting for a couple months now. It totally bugs.
10. I wonder if the pain in my ankle has anything to do with the four inch platforms on my feet at the moment (they're red and strappy. what's not to love?) and all the other heels I wear regularly.... Nah.
11. I like being at work early. It's so quiet.
12. Veronica just came in and now it's not as quiet at work. Even though she doesn't make much noise. Kinda like her presence IS a noise. Ya know? But I like that she came in now anyway.
13. I want to celebrate my birthday next month by going to tea at the Grand America Hotel with friends. And I want to dress up.
14. I always think I want to dress up. If it weren't for the energy and time it took to get done up, I'd do it every day.
15. I wonder if I will even bother to celebrate my birthday this year. I normally don't, and I'll be dog sitting again up in Park City right then, which makes it even less likely that I would celebrate.
16. I started Therapy last week and I don't know what I think about that.
17. Okay, I have a few thoughts. I actually hate going to therapy. It's very draining and unpleasant. Despite this, I think it's a good thing.
18. I'm still not looking forward to my next appointment. I wonder if I can cancel it, even though I know it's a good thing to go. I can justify shopping, so why not canceling therapy?
19. I wonder why I wasn't ready to go to therapy 20 years ago.
20. People are complicated. Take me, for example. I'm very complicated.
21. I did some research yesterday on myself. It's very weird to see your personal attributes written on paper as part of a clinical study or as somebody's research. I feel like suddenly I can't take as much credit for who I am.
22. I wonder who I would have been had my life experiences been very different. I know this is pointless. But I wonder anyway and I feel a little robbed.
23. I am suddenly very thankful I am not a schizophrenic. How odd.
24. I look forward to lunch next week with two very good friends. I even daydream about what we'll talk about.
25. I marvel that Male knows almost everything about me and STILL keeps dating me.
26. I worry about Male's emotional stability and soundness of mind (see #25).
27. I think I need a haircut.
28. I think it's amazing I've let my hair grow as long as it has considering the fact I have the strong urge to cut it at least every other week.
29. A friend of mine said he liked how I looked with short hair, and at the time he said it I had long hair. I wonder if he meant to give me a hint or if he was just a clueless boy in not realizing it might come across as though he didn't liked my hair long as much he liked it short.
30. I want to go on birth control not because I need to control my ability to give birth, but because I saw a commercial that says it causes you to have your period only a few times a year and it controls acne. I think that sounds lovely and wonder if my doctor would give me a prescription.
31. I am excited for my parents to be leaving on a mission.
32. I mostly look forward to them being an ocean away.
33. I know I should feel bad about this, but I don't. This may be solely due to the fact my mother keeps trying to plan my wedding.
34. I'm excited for my new roommate, Sherrice. She seems very nice. And she's from NJ, so it's like she's a little bit of home for me.
35. I secretly wonder if Sherrice is a perfect match for my friend, Will.
36. I realize I try to match almost any cool girl I know with my friend, Will. I wonder what that means.
37. I wonder how Holly came up with 100 things so fast. I seem to be taking forever. Of course, I only think she came up with them quickly because it didn't take very long for me to READ it.
38. I'm still amazed at my lack of celerity because I've had so much going on in my head lately that I really thought this would be quick.
39. My mind has been starting to wander into territory it has never gone before, namely the realm of what could or would be in a "progressive" relationship with Male.
40. On occasion, I look forward to that progress.
41. I feel reassured that I'm still me when that happy daydream is quickly squelched by the fear of being disappointed and also by the dread I have always felt with anything resembling or associated with that kind of progress.
42. I love my ward.
43. I wonder if I should really get a law degree.
44. Having a law degree sounds cool. Don'tcha think?
45. I secretly think a law degree would make me feel smarter. Ok, so that's not such a secret anymore.
46. I wonder if it serves any other purpose for me.
47. Oh yeah. Money. And career options. Security. And being able to provide a valuable service for others. I forgot. I feel better now.
48. I wonder how other people become successful without having degrees. I don't think I could do that.
49. I hear Sharon Stone is a overflowing with energy; a real nonstop, go go go kind of person. I envy her and wish we shared more in common than just our name.
50. Halfway there. I must be a pessimist. The glass seems half empty at the moment.
51. I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving.
52. I'm really glad Male decided to come with me to go home for Thanksgiving.
53. I wonder how I will ever manage to go shopping in NYC if Male is with me for my trip home to Thanksgiving.
54. Hmmm... I may be planning a trip to Vegas, sans Male, to go shopping.
55. I think of myself in comparison to how I was two years ago and think I've become a lot less vivacious. Just thinking of how productive I was two years ago makes me tired now.
56. I wonder if I will ever get that energy back. Maybe when my ankle gets better.
57. I wish I saw my sister more often.
58. I want to buy my sister a straightener and a fabulous new hair cut for Christmas.
59. Ouch. That's going to be expensive.
60. I wish I could just give it to her now. But I don't think she'd like it if I gave it to her for no reason. I think I have to wait for Christmas. Dang it.
61. I look forward to hanging out with Justin next month.
62. I have slight concerns about looking forward to it. But I think it's not an anticipation unlike my anticipation for seeing other friends, which makes it ok. It's just hard to tell.
63. It may take me a few get-togethers with him to feel normal about the two of us.
64. Evolving relationships are tricky.
65. I wish it were lunchtime. I don't know what I will be eating, but I look forward to it anyway.
66. I wish the cake we had in the fridge at work didn't make my stomach sick. It tastes so good. I would have that for lunch if it didn't do that.
67. I would like staying in Park City better if they had a Golds Gym up here.
68. I'm glad I got to see my friend Adrian. She's so stinking smart, it's amazing.
69. I wish I didn't work so much. I look forward to not working so much.
70. I wonder when the time will come that I won't work so much.
71. I keep saying I want a dog, but suddenly I'm not really sure that I do. I love dogs. I like the idea of having one. But that doesn't necessarily mean that really I want one, now does it?
72. I wonder if I will ever be rich. If I were, what kind of rich person would I be?
73. I hope I wouldn't be silly and waste all my money on clothes, travel, cars and a big house. But I fear I would. They're so tempting.
74. I wonder if I'd just be better off as a farmer with a life full of more simplicity.
75. Life has so many distractions.
76. I think Male's great.
77. The ring I'm wearing always catches my hair elastics when I try to put my hair back. It drives my CRAZY!
78. I love my new cell phone. It has a planner inside with bells and whistles. And it's incredibly sleek and sexy.
79. I'm useful. I like that about me.
80. Sometimes I think I would love to have a "status" bag because they're so stylish and other times I'm so glad NOT to have one because of what they say and symbolize. To have or not to have. That is the question.
81. I think I'd rather save up and get a computer. Funny that they are worth just about the same amount of money. Depending on the bag, the computer could even be a lot less expensive.
82. I still like stucco on houses. I don't care what Male says.
83. I like wood floors and I hate wall to wall carpeting. It gives me the heebee geebees.
84. People who clean their cars regularly amaze me. I should clean Pam more often. She's so dirty right now (I can see her from my office window).
85. The weather is so delightful and the colors in the mountains are so pretty that I almost forget the dread of winter that tends to come when fall arrives.
86. I'm glad I can see the colors on the mountains so clearly from my office.
87. Dang, I've really got a good view!
88. I think it's funny that I call the front reception area of our suite, where my desk is located,"my office".
89. I'd think my boss was a lot more intelligent if he didn't use a girl with a master's degree as a receptionist and secretary.
90. I'm glad the girl who always decides to plant herself in front of our suite when she curses and argues at her ex-boyfriend, Alex, over the phone, is not there right now.
91. I'm glad I'm not as neurotic as she is and think Male may not be so badly off with a girl like me.
92. Poor Alex.
93. I think I will clean the fridge at work today. I've been thinking about it for a good week or so.
94. I wonder what I'll eat for dinner.
95. I wonder even more what I'll eat for lunch.
96. It's almost lunchtime. Yeah!
97. I still want to go see Little Miss Sunshine. Curses that Male has that no rated R movies policy. Maybe I'll rent it while I'm in Park City.
98. writing 100 things for today is a lot more of a task than I thought it would be.
99. My left pinky hurts because of a tragic mistake I made in my typing class in the sixth grade. I never learned to used the shift key with my right pinky.
100. I'm gonna wind up being one of those old people warning kids not to start bad habits when they're young and then I'm going to relate to them my story about my poor left pinky. Then they'll understand!.... Be afraid. Very afraid.